This is a pure ranting post!
I have enough of people passing the remark that I am anorexic.
NO! I'M NOT FUCKING ANOREXIC!
I can totally understand when my friends tell me to eat more. I understand where they are coming from. They know me.
But being labelled as an anorexic by strangers? ( I still can accept people calling me skinny as I can't deny that fact.) It is almost like an insult to me. It is the same as them passing a remark "Hey! She/he is fat." They don't know my eating habits and my lifestyle.
And no, I'm not trying to flaunt my skinny-ness here. I'm not proud of it.
Yes, I am skinny...
But definitely not anorexic!
My kitten is depicting exactly how I am feeling.
The word is Frustration.
Continue reading and I will tell you why I am not anorexic.
But first, let's define someone who is an anorexic.
Someone who is an anorexic has an eating disorder that is characterized by the belief that he or she is fat, even when this person is dangerously thin. An anorexic have an eating disorder called Anorexia Nervosa, whereby a person can literally starve himself or herself to death. Anorexics have an intense and overwhelming fear of body fat and weight gain, with repeated dieting attempts and excessive weight loss.
Now, let's take a look at the symptoms of Anorexia.
- A refusal to eat
- An intense desire to be thin
- Repeated dieting attempts
- Excessive weight loss
- Refuses to maintain the minimal body weight
- Misses at least 3 consecutive menstrual cycles
Let me clear the air once and for all. I'm sick of repeating myself again and again.
First and foremost, I DO NOT HAVE ANY EATING DISORDER. It's just that I have a very small appetite and hence, I eat many small meals. I don't starve myself to death! I don't avoid food, I don't even avoid oily foods which some girls do. You will never ever hear me saying "Oh no! I'm going to get fat by eating these." Never! In fact, I love junk food and eat them between meals.
Secondly, I do not fear of gaining weight. In fact, I'm hungry for it.
I know very well that I'm skinny. I have girls telling me how they are envious of me. But I told them no, they wouldn't be. Not all clothes look great on a skinny body like mine.
In fact. I envy them. I want to have a curvier body with a booty.
I mean I'm already happy with my body shape with my given weight, but of course more would be better. ;)
Just so to let you know, I have been underweight since the day I was born. It's up to you to believe it or not. My mum was pretty much worried that she had tried all means to make me gain weight but to no avail. I remember vividly how my mum used to give us appetite boosters tablets to eat. It was the orange and sweet kind.
Standing at 1.6m, my supposed minimal weight is 51kg and now I'm only 37.5kg.
My weight has been fluctuating between 37kg and 40kg all these years.
The heaviest I've gotten was only a mere 45kg (5-6 years ago) after gaining an 8kg. I was taken back.
I went home telling my Grandma and my family. I was ecstatic. It was a pleasant surprise for all of them but that damn 8kg, isn't really noticeable on my body except for my face. Only my cheeks grew chubbier. My Grandma jokingly said where the hell has the 8kg gone to. However, it did not last for more than a week. I lost weight even though I was eating normally.
It was a short-lived joy.
No matter how much I eat, it seems impossible for me to gain weight. It would take months for me to gain 1-2 kg but only a few days to lose it. It's difficult to maintain my weight, let alone gaining weight. I blame it on high metabolism rate.
From my understanding, eating small meals actually do not encourage weight-gaining and I tried eating large meals. Well, that didn't work out well for me either. I feel sick after eating large meals, therefore I reverted back to eating many small meals.
What's good about being skinny?
There's nothing good about it.
I don't look good in everything, especially in classic office wear.
I can't find any jeans which fits me really well.
Speaking of jeans, let me talk about shorts. I have been criticised about my short shorts.
What they don't understand is that as the size of shorts increases, its length increases proportionally right. Correct me if I'm wrong.
But I'm wearing S size shorts to accommodate my small thighs, so the shorts would naturally look shorter on my long legs. Am I right? If I'm short like 1.5m+, then the pair of S size shorts would look perfectly fine on me, but I'm 1.6m.
Not only do I have difficulty in searching for suitable jeans but also shorts. It is really difficult to find a pair of small sized shorts with a length deemed decent as shorts for my height, not short shorts.
At least my own shorts doesn't expose my butt cheeks like nobody's business.
Continuing the list are...
I'm labelled as an anorexic though I am not one.
My female lumps shrink. It's depressing.
Because I'm severely underweight, I've got low blood pressure and low blood sugar. As a result, I get giddy or fainting spells at times. At times, migraines can occur. Fun meh?
But I'm glad I'm healthy generally. I rarely fall sick and my menstrual cycle is regular.
Now you know what it really is, so don't anyhow label me as an Anorexic ok.
